A New Start

After concert on 20 March 2010!!!(Special Edition)

2010-03-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

Got a lot more..will post here when I'm free^^

Chun Cheat Birthday Party!!..19 March 2010

2010-03-26T16:00:00.000-07:00

Trip to Alor Setar for a Rehearsal...17 March 2010

2010-03-20T12:53:00.000-07:00

16 March 2010...

2010-03-17T10:52:00.000-07:00

I Just Realize..

2010-03-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

Stupid, brainless, foolish, spineless, thoughtless, idiotic, unwise, coward, languid, unfriendly, antagonistic, hostile, unsympathetic, uncaring, heartless, cruel, lazy, pusillanimous, rude, unkind, weak, unfeeling, unconcerned, sluggish, rubbish, insensitive, insensible, thoughtless, slothful, inconsiderate, inattentive, thick-skinned, craven, insensate, tactless, indiscreet, gauche, ill at ease, naïve, dim-witted, gutless…… What else? I’m just so…haiz.. SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m just so… AHHHHHHHHHHHHH..F*** lah!!

Jit Sin's Concert "Our Concert" . 13 March 2010

2010-03-15T05:14:00.000-07:00

10 March 2010!!At Cadenza...^^

2010-03-13T18:03:00.000-08:00

I don't deserve love..

2010-03-10T00:35:00.000-08:00

What a boyfriend must know!!

1. Girls do not like guys who lie

2. To impress them. Tell the truth and you'll never have to worry about getting caught in a lie

3. Be protective, but not overprotective. Don't control her every move, and don't let her control you

4. Make her feel like you want to take care of her.

5. Tell her when you are thinking about her

6. Make an effort to get along with her friends. Be friendly, but don't flirt with them. Your girlfriend could easily be hurt by this

7. Avoid fights, arguments, and disagreements with her friends

8. Always tell her that she is the only girl in your life.

9. Treat her well.

10. Compliment her often so that she knows that you're still interested in her.

11. Try to cheer her up when she's sad about little things. For emotions like grief, it's best to simply be there for her

12. Don't try to make her jealous, or suggest that she may be jealous

13. Bring her some of her favorite flowers.

14. Be romantic

15. Don't tell her you think other girls are hot, even if she asks your opinion

16. In the same way, don't make her jealous of your exes. Keep conversations about them to an absolute minimum

17. Don't pressure her

18. Never call her fat, even if she's obese

19. Listen to her speak, even if the topic is boring. After a bit, gently change the subject

20. "No" always means no. Even when you think it doesn't

21. Don't let your friends pick on her. Stick up for her, even if they are only kidding

22. Try to do something you both love to do, so that relationships don't seem a drag to you.

23. Tell her you've been thinking about her all day.

24. Kiss her on the forehead and on top of her head, especially when she is feeling down, and

always say a simple 'I love you'

25. When she is venting about something (whether it’s about her life or about your relationship) doesn’t turn it into something about you. She's just telling you her feelings

26. Don't be afraid of kissing her in public if she wants to.

27. Answer her phone calls...and don't complain that she woke you up.

28. Call her for no reason....just to talk to her so she knows that you care and are always thinking of her

29. Notice the tiny details about her, if she mentions that she liked something and then 3 weeks later you remember she'll love it

30. Surprise her! (but not in an annoying way, it has to be sweet and loving e.g. a small gift or sending her something in the post)

31. Spoil her!

32. Call her at night just to wish her sweet dreams.

33. Don't forget her birthday. Just don't

34. Stand up for her. If you have friends who don't like her and call her names, if you hear them, you better stand up for her. She's your girlfriend, for Heaven's sake! That doesn't mean cussing your friends out and making them mortal enemies, it just means saying, "Hey guys, that's not cool." Your girlfriend will be glad to know that you are so loyal and respect her.

35. Text her randomly just saying "I'm thinking about you". It means a lot to her to know that she's always on your mind

36. Write poetry for her. Writing girl poetry or a song is extremely cute. Who cares if he spelled "where" as one would spell "were", or if he misses a comma, or repeats a word in the same sentence? A girl will always be flattered that you care enough to do something like that for her. Just don't write her anything too...sexy. Write a poem about her eyes or the way she smiles. Write about her laugh or how much she means to you

37. Make her feel safe and loved. All humans like feeling safe and loved. Girls are no different thank you very much. We need to be reassured that you actually like us, you aren't just desperate. Make sure your girlfriend knows she’s important to you

38.Write out "I love you" and say it to her face. If your texting and you say "ily" that’s all fine and good but it is so much cuter if you take the time to write I Love You. it means a lot more. Also, say it to her face the first time. don’t use text

39. Speak Up. Whether it is about problems or choices, always converse with your girlfriend. Boys have the tendency to keep their problems with themselves, but sometimes this can lead to problems. If your mood is not good and she tries to find out the reason, tell her the problem and for sure, she’ll offer you her shoulder to relax

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I found that I will never be a good boyfriend, so i will just study hard. I don't deserve any love(of cause not included love from friends and family)..I believe my life still can go on well..hehe^^

Everytime

2010-03-09T06:41:00.001-08:00

Notice me, take my hand

Why are we strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, it's haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here

It's the only way I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song's my sorry

At night I pray

That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall

Without my wings, I feel so small

I guess I need you, baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you, baby

Positive Thinking & Bring abundance to your life!

2010-03-05T02:33:00.000-08:00

Can't fall asleep..Too much worries..

2010-03-03T06:59:00.001-08:00

I can’t fall asleep!! Too many things happened and I still can’t accept all of it, losing friends, losing trust, losing my image and more. Suddenly I’m feeling very lethargic. How long must I suffer? I got so many things to study! I’ve been a fool last year, wasted all my precious time by doing all useless things. Why I never thought of what I’m thinking now last year? I regret! Very regret! I want a better life!

I want to help people but somehow I can’t help them. This making me feels that I’m good for nothing. Sitting in front of my computer now listening to two songs (She Will Be Loved & The Reason) now, brain kept thinking of all sorts of stuff. Muscles feeling pain, brain can’t take any more pressure, I’m thinking whether I will end up in the hospital or not.

Something wrong these few days, the weather is extremely hot. This humid weather makes everyone gets on fire easily. Exam coming really soon, I’m only ready for two subject which is Malay language and Math. I will revise my moral, literature in English, English and my History. I don’t want to be a loser. My nilam book is very empty; I will try to write about 100++ stories by this month. This year I won’t get involved in any discipline cases or any other things. This year is very important to me, I will boost up myself. ^^

All the best to you!!^^

She Will Be Loved

2010-03-03T01:04:00.000-08:00

Beauty queen of only eighteen

She had some trouble with herself

He was always there to help her

She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I've had you so many times but somehow

I want more

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know I tend to get insecure

It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

It's compromise that moves us along

My heart is full and my door's always open

You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

I know where you hide

Alone in your car

Know all of the things that make you who you are

I know that goodbye means nothing at all

Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Something that I realised..

2010-03-03T00:26:00.000-08:00

Some Saxophone's brand that I know..haha^^...Sax For Life!!!

2010-03-02T04:25:00.000-08:00

Did I change??

2010-03-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

Did I change???

I’ve try my best to change.
I don’t want to be looked down by other peoples.
I don’t want people to call me “fatty” nor “stupid” anymore.
I go on dieting, body building, worked hard in music and study.
No one notice me when I was in form 1.
I don’t like the feeling, it hurts.
By this year, my only year, I will do my best in every aspect to prove to those people who criticized me before.I’ll improve!!^^

27 February 2010!!!..

2010-02-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

I’ve lots of fun during this one day camp.
Meet lots of new people this time.
Can’t really remember their name, but I still can remember their cheerful faces.
Or somehow I gave them some special name.^^ exp. Miss T.T, Aunty……
Thanks all of you for such a fantastic day.

The Reason

2010-02-28T02:40:00.000-08:00

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Pictures...

2010-02-25T07:32:00.001-08:00

Trying...^^

2010-02-24T00:13:00.000-08:00

Day by day, hours by hours, minutes by minutes and second by seconds, I still can’t forgive myself for doing a lot of hurting and imprudent things last year. I can’t replace my past but I will try my best to change my one and only future. I don’t wish to fall in my life anymore. I don’t know what people think about me, in fact I‘m trying to ignore what they say. They judge me badly, I know I’m not perfect but I will try to improve myself. Try my best in studies and music is the only way I can substantiate myself to others.

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I didn’t let it go yet. I don’t know how. It keep stay in my heart, stick in my heart and it just can’t be forget. I’ve try my very best, but it stays there. Hope that I will let it go one day so that both could stay in a joyful life.
Hope everyone stay happy..^^

Performance at Upper Penang Road...04.02.2010

2010-02-23T02:13:00.000-08:00

I believe pictures talk..

2010-02-20T08:16:00.000-08:00

Post of the year!!^^

2010-02-01T03:47:00.001-08:00

A lot of things happen to me since I last post in this blog. There are a lot of changes now. I can’t be the person I use to be anymore. Life is so challenging now. I’m crazy after those books. Somehow I’m afraid that I will be a book worm. This will be the only post here until SPM is over. I will post here if there is something special. ^^.ALL THE BEST IN STUDIES!!!!

I've got to give it a try!

2009-11-15T05:30:00.001-08:00

I’m rotting. Rotting In lots of way. I did not show my love to my family enough. My mum is the one who always help me when I need her help. She cares for me, love me, and rather suffer than asking me to help.

Did I ever help her? For lots of time I kept speak to her rudely. I’m not a good son. I didn’t show love to her, I hurt her. I know I love her but she suffering and I’m stuck being lazy and ignore her. I suck! But mum, I LOVE YOU! I’m sorry! I’m just not brave enough to say sorry and I love you. I didn’t wish her happy birthday, I don’t know when was the last time I hug her, kiss her. I’m just so useless.

My dad is disappointed to me. He says my attitude change a lot and it’s from bad to worse. I agree with him. I can see it from myself. I suck in studies. Many people may think that I’m good in music, but seriously I’m not. I didn’t practice hard enough. I’m almost useless!

I’ve tried my very best to study but I can’t. Maybe not I can’t, it’s just my attitude. I still can feel how easy it was to me in every single paper I take in standard 6. I remember that the entire question is so easy because I’ve done it many times. Look at me now! I don’t even know what the question wants! I need to do more exercise!

About my attitude! I change a lot, I always show my face if I hate something. It’s wrong and I have to change. I always show no respect to others, I kind of hate myself for that! I want to be a better person. I’m sorry for those who I’ve hurt you before!

Breakdancing is something that I suddenly fell in love with! But for now I have to control myself.
Music! I will try my best to understand you more! I will practice hard!
Mum, Dad, Sis and bro! I love all of you! I’m sorry! Seriously I don’t know when the last time I told them “I love you” and hug them.

My darling! We’ve just started! I’m happy, but I sometimes we just have to control. I love you. I will tell my family soon about this! I’m thinking whether we can reduce texting each other or not but for now never mind because it’s holiday. We’ve know each other for more than 4years, I’ll try my best to make you feel happy. Result of both of us must be good, okay? This is to ensure that our parent won’t say anything.

I love all of you!
Family! Friends! Dear! All of you out there!
I’ll really appreciate you all!!!
And finally, I’m sorry mum! I love you!

Thanks Helmi!!!

2009-11-14T18:17:00.000-08:00

DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

2009-11-13T18:25:00.000-08:00

I just can't stop dancing!!!
hahahahaha

Started learning, and can't control myself already!!haha

I'm crazy after Kawasaki Ninja 650R!!! LOVE IT!! BUY FOR ME!!!

2009-11-05T23:49:00.000-08:00

WORKING HARD FOR THIS!!!!

2009-11-04T00:44:00.001-08:00

I LOVE GAMBLERZ CREW!!!!

Baba Boom....I've landed flat on the ground. And i 'm at the end.

2009-10-21T00:23:00.000-07:00

It has come to an end. My brain can’t take it anymore. Somehow, I feel that I think too much, but I realize that thanks to my thinking I manage to see the whole picture. Whatever I do now is to make everything go well. If in this process there’s anyone who hates me, I won’t blame them. I’ve made this decision and I won’t change until the times come. Sorry if I hurt anyone’s feeling, but that’s the only thing I can do. Let it go. I won’t be updating my blog until December. I won’t be answering any call until December, except for business or family’s call. I will hide myself aside. It’s time to be cruel. But it’s the only way I have. Hate me please! I’m sorry.

FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-20T04:02:00.000-07:00

To left or right?

2009-10-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

Actually I don’t understand myself. I’ve made so many wrong things and I wish I could run away from everything, but I can’t. I wish my life I full of freedom, no limit of thinking and playing.

A book name “I care”
…..I’ve hurt an ant and I kick it away when it’s suffering. I left it aside and try to forget about it, but I’m to worry that it can’t walk or maybe get step by another human. Why I care for an ant? I don’t understand why I care for it and why I left it there. Could it be a mistake? ......I wish time can be reversing……

Ok. It’s too long to continue.

I know it will end soon. I can feel it. I don’t want people to get hurt and I want to end it now but it can’t. Just let time decide. It’s a sure that it will end soon. I’ve cool myself down to face it.T.T

Nothing much..

2009-10-16T21:58:00.000-07:00

I got no mood today..
Just hope that tonight's performance will be ok..=(

Sorry..

2009-10-14T08:08:00.001-07:00

I will update my blog soon..

I hate b*nd!!

2009-10-07T00:48:00.000-07:00

I want to quit!!! I hate it!!! I won't be happy if I'm still in it!!!!!

Shit you!!!!

2009-10-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

I need to apologize for today’s post because it contains some vulgar words. I try not to but the freaking S*I*B (Stupid, idiot and bastard) have made me lose all my control. What in the earth have happen to those entire bastards? They got nothing better to do? Please fuck off from my life! Screaming like the gays that always walking here and there at Love Lane. It’s really a disgrace for boys.

There’s also another fellow who always make all his funny dirty jokes. He doesn’t know how to respect others. The way he talk makes others think that his not well educated. I will never blame people’s parents, but I pity his parent to have such useless, boorish and wayward son. I have to admit that I’m not smart or very polite, but at least I still know how to give respect to others parents. Do you know that you really stink when you sweat? I think you don’t realize, now I let you know. You stink like a pig in the deep black shit! Fuck off from my life. Raise your voice outside from my class, comment on my parents, acting like you’re the best, do you think you really good? I will never give any respect to such human like you! Fuck off! There’s whole bunch of shit out there, go join them and you will be like them infect you are already a shit! I’m really angry today until I feel like punching you today! Look back those times when you’re just form 2!!! You are different now! Is it after a person gets a position they will change? I hate you, you fucker!

S*I*B REALLY SUCK! Maybe people that are not in it won’t realize but from what I know, it sucks! A group of people will never improve if the person in charge is acting like his no-good-dirty-rotten-stupid-lousy-great-great-grandfather. And this guy is already elder than us by 10years++. He‘s not married yet, I guess everyone know why. He kept telling us he’s our brother. Please lah. I think he don’t realize how old he is. Look like shit and always talk bullshit.

You really suck Mr. **o* A*k K*on*.!
Why you all must spoil my day? You all want position in b**d, I already don’t want to fight for it with you all. What you all want some more? I’m just a normal member now, aren’t you all happy? I hate fuckers like you all. Dam shit! Can’t you all let me smile? I want to laugh like how the young and innocent kid does! I hate to tolerate will all this bullshit! Leave me alone! Or I can say my heart have already leave this shit b**d long time ago. I will try my best to leave. I say it I mean it.

I admire them!!

Anyway, for form 3’s student, wish you all the best!!

Haizzz..

2009-10-05T04:48:00.000-07:00

Look at the positive, go for the positive. I found that is time for me to make a change, a change to a better attitude, a change to a better live. Think back what I’ve done today, yesterday and the days before yesterday, I found that I’ve wasted too much time. MY studies is not as good as I 1^st came in to St. Xavier Institution, attitude getting worse, Starting to get lazy, lacking of responsibility I use to have and also my way of thinking.

I believe that if I don’t study well, no one will look up on me. No point being a good musician when my studies suck. My attitude is like shit! Where’s the way I communicate, the way I twist facts, the way I solve problem perfectly without anyone getting angry? I’ve lost all this! I need them back. How to study? Study smart? How? Anyone can help me? Please teach me!!! Exam coming soon and I’m not ready at all. If I don’t get good result I believe that I will hate myself until next year. Studying in my dim-witted class really make me feel scared. Everyday see all those sleepy faces, injuries around there body and lots more. Do they really want to study? I don’t mind if they don’t want to study but they have already affected me. I’m a person who can study when the class is noisy. I hate them for changing me; I hate myself for giving them a chance to change. There’s no one to blame except for me. I hate my life now, so messy.

I need to change! I have to change! I want to change!!!

Please give me some advice!!!thank..

This is how I look like now..

2009-10-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

PESS Band trip to Ipoh!!!Sweet memories!!!Thnx Jimmy for the photo!

2009-10-02T17:50:00.000-07:00

On the way to Ipoh!!!

Jin Xin, Jason Wong& Jimmy!!

Sleeping in the car..haha

Fake one!!haha^^

Amir!!!!look so.....hahaha

Jimmy!!!this photo make me look gay!!haha

My bear bear!!!

Hello Wei Jun!!!

Talking nonsence!

Sleeping beuty-Jason & Naked boy-Amir

Jason and me(smsing behind)

Amir with his innocent look!

Ai Theng!!

Li Ji..she want to take photo of me!!!wahahha..joking

My steam steam look..

Having breakfat together!!!

Ai Theng, Amir, Me, Cheng Mun, Li Ji & David..

Jason, Wei Jun, Jin Xin, Jer Win & Jin Hoay

Wei Jun trying to make it look tasty!!

Damm Hungry huh..

David say: "Cheese!!!"

Mr. Foo is promotinh his handphone which can shave!!!

Can you see the hole?

PESSBand-Family!!

Cheng Mun asked for a relationship!!!hahaha..joking

Li Ji did the same thing too..haha

Superman!!!!!!!!!

Mr. Foo posing!!!

Jump!!!

Jump, jump!!!

Jump, jump, jump and up we go!!!

Acting lala...haha

Our Boss!!!!

Me and Evelyn..

Almost the same!!!

Amir want to kiss me!!!

Don't tell anyone!!

The End!!!!!!!!!!

Performing at ENO Hotel...

2009-10-01T08:25:00.001-07:00

Unbelievable I’m in Star newspaper!!!!!!!!^.^

2009-09-30T02:35:00.000-07:00

Injudicious B**d!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-28T04:33:00.000-07:00

I’m livid, furiously angry, annoyed and very frustrated. I don’t like school b**d!! It’s just so wearisome, uninspiring and dull. Life in it was nice in the beginning, but it turn up with a big mess in the end! It’s seriously lame. Back stepping, betrays, squabble, misinterpretation and lots more happen when I’m going through the live in it! I LOVE WHAT I JOINED OUTSIDE SO MUCH (PESSBand)! Although I’m not really good in playing it, but at least there are always someone there that willing to lend me a hand, educate me, train me, appreciate me and care for me. I feel like using all those vulgar words now!!! It has been sometimes since I last use them.
I HATE SCHOOL B**D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10pm...need you right now!!!

2009-09-24T06:57:00.000-07:00

A scene in my dream that make my whole night sweet...

2009-09-24T05:14:00.001-07:00

To all my friends!! Be happy!!!

2009-09-23T05:16:00.000-07:00

How to make your parents love you for who you are??

All parents have preconceived thoughts of how to raise their child and what they want their child to become as an adult. Expectations grow, and the child develops by responding to their parents upbringing. Once their child enters into the world of friends, schools and group peers, this child develops his or her own personality. Parents at times may react adversely to their child's preferences for a life style, and the child feels unloved and unhappy. This is how you can talk to your parents and let your parents know that you need their love for who you are even if that is something far different from their expectations.

Step!!!

Have a quiet discussion with your parents. Choose a time when things are quiet and calm, and nicely ask them to hear you out. Explain that you have something to tell them, and that you would like them to listen before responding.
Explain that you understand that they are having a difficult time in accepting you as you are, but that you are still the same person they raised and love, but now have different feelings and thoughts. Make sure they know that you love them for who they are, and in turn you need them to love and accept you for who you are. Explain that you are aware of and appreciate the love they have given while raising you, and that they are good parents.
Remind them that not everyone has the same interests, desires, or makes the same choices. Tell them that although you learned much from them, you have become your own person with your own preferences and feelings. After you have finished, sit quietly and see how they react and what they have to say. If they are positive and accepting, then you have made your point. Hug them and emphasize how much you love and appreciate them. If, however, they say that they cannot accept you for who you have become, just say you are sorry they feel that way.
Consider your choices, which depend on your age. You either move out of the house, or remain at home. Either way, you know that you have tried to make them understand. For now however, you just have to move on with your life. In time, perhaps you will gain their acceptance and feel their love. In the meantime, be content knowing that you have tried.
Don't turn your back on your parents. You cannot force them to love and accept you, but you can love to them.

Tips!!!

Don't give up.
Do not lose your cool.
Decide that you will not be offended by any hurtful remarks.
Do not demand they accept you, just ask them to
Understand that they were brought up differently, where acceptance of differences in people was frowned upon. This is part of who they are, and you need to accept that it is difficult for them to change at this stage of their life.
Be patient and understanding and open to them about the changes that have occurred to you, and the inward happiness you now feel. Little by little, as they learn more, they may come to accept you. Parents really never stop loving their child, and yours have really not stopped loving you!
Be open to them and show them love. Help them as much as you can, and explain you will always be there for them.
Maybe one day the more they understand the more accepting they will become, and will love you for who you have become.

Warning!!!

Be prepared that you might not ever be accepted for who you are and understand that their no acceptance does not mean they do not love you. Just go on with your life and be content in knowing that you tried.
Don't ever feel that you have to change yourself to please your parents. Just be yourself, even if your parents don't accept who you are.

MISS!!! (Special thanks to Sher Rens for th photos)

2009-09-21T01:51:00.000-07:00

It Illustrates My Heart!!!

2009-09-19T21:48:00.000-07:00

PESSBand 516 Concert!! I Miss It So Much!!!

2009-09-14T02:41:00.000-07:00

I love James Last!!!

2009-09-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

Mamma Mia!!!

Hip-Hop Polka!!!

Orange Blossom Special!!!

Dancing Queen!!!

Nature Boy!!!

Friends are important to me...

2009-09-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

Thanks for giving me a chance to be your friends. Without all of you, i won't be who i am now. I love all of you!!

I believe this!!!!

2009-09-08T06:31:00.001-07:00

Is this true??? I got no idea..

2009-09-08T05:27:00.000-07:00

Stupid me...bla bla bla

2009-09-06T08:58:00.001-07:00

I know I’m dim-witted.
Thanks for reminding.
I know I suck.
Thanks for reminding.
Anymore comment from you?
I know you are angry because of your friend.
So I don’t mind.
Why can’t anyone stand on my side and think for me.
I care for both sides.
But, it end up with a mess.
What I want now is a place for me to gasp some fresh air.
My heart broken twice.
I swear I won’t let it happen anymore.

Wake up!!!

2009-09-05T02:55:00.001-07:00

I finally wake up from my dream.
I decided to give up on love.
I think this decision will hurt some people, but I won’t change anymore.
I’m apprehensive of love.
I hate love.
Love is full of twists and turns and a person that is so selfish like me can’t hold a right to get involve with love.

I won’t get involve in it until 2 years later.
I need a rest in it.
I won’t feel lonely if I’m not in love.
I won’t easily be sad if I’m not in love
I got music that always loves me, care for me and trust me.
If there is people that start to hate me nor angry with my decision, I can’t help it.
If there is people that start being sad after my decision I’m sorry for it.
I want to have a brand new life!!!

SHIT!!

2009-09-03T06:13:00.000-07:00

Still not in the condition for smsing!
Time faster past!!!
I need tomorrow!!!
I got lot of problem to face because of my bloody personal problem!!!
Shit you, Yu Kee!!!

A question that can't be answer!

2009-09-02T03:13:00.000-07:00

Am I confused or you are confused? I kept asking myself.
Okay, we can just be friend, I accepted it.
But, one thing that I don’t understand was why what you told me before is so different?

You said you mind, worry and maybe a bit heated if I don’t reply your massage.
You feel the same way to your friend?
You said the way I reply you was very hurting that day.
You feel the same way to your friend too?
You said you don’t want me to waste time on you.
You tell your friend this too?
There’s a lot of thing that I don’t understand and don’t wish to cotton on it now.
Never mind I will forget about it.
We are just friends!

Cant sms today.. Sorry all my friends..

I need you..

2009-08-29T19:03:00.000-07:00

I miss you..
i love you...

Special holiday...

2009-08-29T06:24:00.000-07:00

27th of August is a memorable day in my life. I spend a quarter of my day with her. Many things happen before that day, and it’s not easy for me to pass through that few days. But anyway I’m already ok now, everything is fine. Holiday is going to end soon. I’m no prepared for it yet. I kept watching the movie that my dad bought. I found that my younger brother is very rude, noisy, stubborn and annoying. He love to cry, and when he does, he win. I don’t like it. 2 more days to 31st of August. I’m scared. I don’t wish to lose in that marching competition, and of cause who wish to lose.

Wish my band all the best and wish u have a wonderful reopen with all your undone moral report..haha.. faster finish it.

It's ok..I tell myself...

2009-08-24T05:08:00.000-07:00

I’m just fine,

I truly figure out,

I know finally,

I get the answer I need,

I’ve been waken up,

I know, I know, I know…

I’m not perfect…

Iwill neeber regret...best moment in my life...

2009-08-13T01:59:00.000-07:00

A happy result!It finally end!! ^.^

2009-08-11T03:26:00.000-07:00

Finally it ends! Today I’m really happy because I’m not holding any more conscientiousness in my school b*nd. I’ve been waiting this time since form 2 and finally I get what I wished. Thanks for your great verdict!! I love it! Thanks. I’m so happy when I didn’t hear my name been mentioned. My family also felt happy with the result.
Cheer for me!!!

An unanticipated position that I get in choir!.

2009-08-10T02:38:00.000-07:00

Today is my school choir Annual General Meeting and guess what, I was chosen as the chairman and the conductor of the choir. It was so unpredictable. I didn’t aspect to get any high position in choir and out of no where I’m the chairman. This is my 1st time being a chairman or can be known as president. Any advice?? I need some strong advice to enrich my choir group.

Although today is a school day, I still can’t get in the study mood. I kept think of nonsense and keep day dreaming. The worse thing is exam is on next week and school makes it into 3 days instead of 2days. I’m scared yet still don’t feel like studying. Haha. I’m a bad boy. Perlu sentiasa ditegur baru boleh belajar dengan baik. But there is a statement that I like to use and I think I can use it now. “Not I don’t want to read the books, is the books who don’t want to let me read it” hahaha. Haiz. Just wish I don’t get bad result for this coming exam.

All the best Yu Kee!!!
This Saturday is a school day…T.T

A Wonderful Day..(special thank to all of you)

2009-08-09T02:08:00.000-07:00

Today were really a nice days. I meet some new fiends which are given some nicknames by themselves. There are very sociable and one of them was really amusing. The day started with a rainy morning, disappointing morning, I supposed, but I don’t seem to go that way because this was the 1st time I get to see her in the morning and it really does cheer up my day. At 1st we reach the location around 6.05am, and her friend were not there yet nor not out from their dream yet. After some time, I meet up with her friends and there were 4 of them at that time. After that, comes another friend of her, wearing a pink cap. She’s easy to be spotted from far because of her pink cap. All of us started to run(not really running, some were walking) around 7.45am. Weng and Wei Ling(pink cap girl) leads at the beginning of the run, followed by Chea How, Alicia and finally me, her and A Hu. At the end, both of us were there at the field 1st before them.

When the time where everyone is already there, we walk to aside and spend our time talking there. I wasn’t really in the conversation, I don’t know why also, maybe I’m just shy. We waited there for about 20mins for the lucky draw and as a final point we gave up in waiting. Chea How and Wei Ling when down to give people our lucky draw no. but they want to give to those who have lots of no. with them already. They walk here and there just to find a person that they can give the no. to and finally they give to a girl(I don’t know who is that).

We walk to Wei Ling house after that, many hilarious things were done on the way to her house. All the way to the house were filled with conviviality, merry laughter and happiness. This is my 1st time feel so happy to know all of them. Funny faces, funny actions and jokes from them make me lost all my worries away. I’m really pleased that I know them; I really wish I got a chance to meet them again. Back to the story, we took our shower at Wei Ling’s house. When everyone was done, we depart to Gurney Plaza; sadly I didn’t manage to go with them because need to take care of my younger brother. I reach home with a tiring look and I wish I will have an opportunity to meet them again.

Thank you all for giving me such a sweet memory that I will never forget. Thank you all really much.

Finally, thank you for helping me to solve all this transport problems and sorry if I do give you any troubles. Miss u lots.

No!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-07T20:59:00.001-07:00

DAMM!!!
My handphone spoiled!!!!

I Miss You!!

2009-08-05T22:49:00.000-07:00

I'm really worry..
What actually happen last night?
Any injuries?
Then hows your exam today?
How can i contact you?
There are really lots of questions in my head...
I miss you..
I really miss you!!

I'm angry but I want to say SoRRY.

2009-07-31T22:14:00.000-07:00

Talking bad about other people and back stepping is really a thing that I hate. Just a simply inference that have been said from his mouth make a lot of different. I’m full of anger right now, maybe I need time to cool down and acting back normal, but for now I can’t. I’m trying my best but why must people come out with their own story and simply accuse me when it’s not the truth? Never mind I think I just need time to forgive and forget. SORRY TO THOSE OF YOU. I’ll just try to liaise with you all, but please stop back stepping.

By the way,
Hope You Recover As Soon As Possible and All The Best In Your Exam!!!

Yes or No?? ans: NO...

2009-07-18T02:24:00.000-07:00

My dad’s business was okay and my sister is enjoying (maybe) herself at Ipoh. For me this week was ok but I don’t feel happy with my society. There really lots of problem that can’t be verbalize, I wish it can be solve as soon as possible. I love this society very much but it’s making me sick of it because of the attitude the have.

For no reason she makes me very happy this few days but also make me very depressed, sad and also make me cry a lot this month. It’s a YES or NO. I still don’t know, but I think the percentage of NO is very high. I usually share my problems with her and I will feel better after that, but for this I can’t share with her because it’s about her. This makes my brain getting heavier and heavier and have push me to an extant that I will easily cry and lost control. Why my brain only got you? Whatever I do, whatever I think the word ‘You” will appears. I really don’t know what to do. I’m scared that I will hurt you because I’m not sure it’s a lust or its love. I don’t want to hurt you. My brain is really pain. I’m sorry if I do hurt you. I’ve really lost my confident. Should I give up? I don’t understand you. I don’t have a chance to understand. I’m really out of my mind can’t think well you make me think that way sometimes but some times u you make me think the other way round.

My exam is coming soon so do everyone except for some schools. Am I ready? The answer is NO. I can’t concentrate in my study because I’m still in a holiday mood. Wish that I can wake up from the dream in wonderland as soon as possible. Haha.

Nothing much happen this week, I can’t wait for 25 of July, because there will be a competition held in Penang. It’s a band display competition organize by Celcom. Besides that I wish I can go for the PEACE run on the 8 of August. My dad didn’t give a answer yes or no because he’s not sure whether my sister will be able to come back on that day and take care my bro or not. Really sad about this, the date line is on 27 of July, how can I answer her whether I can go or not if my dad doesn’t make a conclusion now? T.T

Words for words...

2009-07-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

Words for words again...
I hate you > Gays
I love you > I miss you
I will try > Study

Bad days...

2009-07-04T05:22:00.000-07:00

Life in school isn’t easy at all. For the pass few days I’m suffering in school. I and my form have been united because of that too, except for 4 peoples. Some of them are very childish; some of them don’t bother what is happening and also very rude. Whenever we have meeting I’m sure they will make lots of noise and whatever things come out from their mouth is usually meaningless and words that are very sarcastic. One of them is very rude and I don’t like his attitude. He likes to talk about other peoples parents and also insult other’s parents. What kind of human is this? Do he have parent? Why is he so impolite and don’t know how to respect other people’s parents? I think he don’t know how people feels when he speak in that way. His attitude is going to put him into tans of trouble, and I hope he can change before the troubles trouble him.
Back to the point, how can we, form 4 solve this problem? It’s not easy for us because it’s so complicated and not everyone is telling the truth. I always have my way to find whether people lie to me or not, so please don’t try to lie to me. There is a person who makes a big lie and my form 4 badge believes him so do the others. I wish he tell the truth before something get worse.
It have been 4 days include yesterday I didn’t sms her. I’ve tried to go to the place she stay and try my luck whether I get to see her or not, but when I went there, her house were dark and I think there is no one there at all. Most probably she when for tuition or maybe out for something? So, I called my friend that stay near by and chatted with him for quite a long time.
I still remember that I cried on the 29 of June 2009. I think I cried because of the pressure I have in school and also missing her to much until I cry. This is the 1st time a feel that bad in this year and after I cry I fall asleep. The worst thing is I didn’t reply her message. When I wake up about 1 something, I saw 4 messages and I feel very bad because I did not reply her. A sudden feeling that I get when I was looking the message was she’s sad. I wish she’s not but no matter what happen, I still going to tell her this:
I’m very sorry!!!

I feel that I’m very ludicrous for falling in love a girl that doesn’t love me at all. Why I fall in love with her when already she told before that better not to fall in love with her? Today, 4 July 2009, I finally get to contact her but I feel like I’m disturbing her or maybe I’m very annoying. Of cause if I would ask her whether I am disturbing her or not, sure the answer is no but her message make me feel that I am. My feeling now is very indescribable. I don’t know what I should do. My brain is burning. Her friend kept asking her whether she is with me. How would they know that I know her? She’s still a person that I can’t stop thinking of. There is no reason at all. I can only blame myself that I am ludicrous. Can someone tell me what I should do? I can’t forget her so it won’t be a nice way for me to forget about her.

I still didn’t get the line back yet, and that really make me very moody and emotional, but thanks to me my band buddy, Amir I’m well controlled this few days. And we have made a promise that we won’t use all those F word anymore because it’s very rude and it makes us look childish.

Jit Sin Symphonic Band wishes you all, all the best!!

My god-sis, Patsy is now at Kuala Lumpur studying. I don’t get to see her at all before she leaves, and that makes me feel very depressed.

Sis, wish you all the best and take care! I will always miss you!!^^

Marcus’s sister, Tricia thanks for the dinner that night. Although I don’t know you well but it’s really nice to meet you. Wish u all the best and take care!

My sister is going to Ipoh soon. I wish she will be able to get use to the environment there and also study well and GOOD LUCK!!

Joanne Yap is going to Singapore for further studies and I also don’t get to meet her at all. She’s pretty and young lady wish when she goes there won’t get bully. Hehe. Wish u all the best too!!

Why is everyone leaving me??

Ahhhhh!!

2009-06-25T05:12:00.000-07:00

My house internet line got cut. I don't really have time to blog. This is really really sad. Wish that i can get back my line soon. By the way, she is really important to me. A word from her can really make me feel happy. I love her so much!!

/(^-^)...I ?o?? you..

2009-06-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

Without realizing I’m already confuse,
Putting in me heart down the ground for the wonderful you,
Wishing to get a drop of blessing,
And it all comes with a word from you.

Time flies as I know you,
Predicament comes and goes as it should,
Please give me likelihood if I speak it to you,
Bothering you is really what I don’t wish to do.

What I want to verbalize is just the widespread five words,
Wishing and hoping you are with me,
But because of the promise,
I still can’t have you wish me…..

Hate today!!!!T.T

2009-06-11T03:29:00.000-07:00

I broke my mouthpiece today…
I’m so sad to day…
She’s under the weather today…
Today is really an unlucky day for me…
Never mind I believe that all this will fly away like the wind from me…
Day will not be rainy anymore and the sun will always shine wherever place I go…
Someone please help me…
I don’t like all this nonsense…
It’s giving me pressure…
A big rock is on my head…
Pushing me down the ground...
And it’s killing me…
NONSENCE LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!

Meaning of that THING??

2009-06-09T23:14:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was I wonderful day, the band practice was just okay okay. Only some small problem that I don’t want to talk about. But I enjoyed my day because I went out with her. And it has been long time since I last step in the cinema. I was really late but at least we didn’t miss any part of the show. We spend our time walking here and there and she also meets her friends at there.

Day may be simple but it can mean a lot if u have that THING,
Day may be complicated but we learned a lot through that THING,
Day may be just as usual if you don’t notice a THING,
Day may be interesting if you just remember to add that THING,
Day may be joyful if u still remember u have that THING,
Live is always meaningful because of that thing!
What that thing?
Everyone will find out.
And once u find out, you will enjoy your whole life…

Ipoh trip...

2009-06-09T22:56:00.001-07:00

On June 6, 2009, I went to Ipoh for a concert performance with Shen Jai school band. We depart around 10.30am. I’m sitting in side Evelyn’s car and accompany by my band buddy, Amir and also Jimmy. Actually I planed to sleep in the car but at last I didn’t. We were chatting not stop in the car and we are also the last one that arrived in Ipoh. We arrived there about 12.45pm and it’s really hot there. We went to a restaurant for our lunch their principal paid for our lunch and it’s really delicious.

After that we went to Perak Girl School’s hall for the rehearsal. After spending all our time there for sound check, we went to our hotel to chance and wash up ourselves. Amir is the 1st person who jumps on the bed with his smelly socks ant followed by Jason and finally me! After wasting our time in there, I when for a shower first; Jimmy was opening his accessories for his hair. And when Amir saw the hair straightened and he wan his hair to be straight. After all this nonsense we went to the hall once again with our full black attire.

When we reach there, we put our instrument and bags at the top floor. After that, we headed down for lunch. I enjoy throughout the whole concert and this is also the 1st time I walk down the stage and play in front of the audience. After performing all the pieces, we took a group photo together and at that time I saw my friend from Ipoh. She took some photo of me and left. I feel so sad because don’t get to say hi to her. Anyway she gave me a teddy and I name it Carmen.

After photo shooting, we went to a coffee shop for supper. I sat beside my god-sis, Phinn. I drank about 5 cups of water, maybe because of wasting to much saliva went playing saxophone. Later on we went to er… I don’t remember what street it is. Hehe. The ice-kacang that full of 15 types of fruit really tastes scrumptious. After all the eating we went back to our hotel. Once we step in the room 203, Jason rushes to the bed and sleep without changing or bathing. He is so sick. Hahaha. Me, jimmy and Amir keep playing around and keep taking lots of picture. We play around until 4.30am and finally we sleep peacefully.

We woke up on 7.50am and start to pack our luggage. We watch Jacky-Chan (cartoon version), Ninjas Turtle and also Phineas and Ferb. Hahaha. We first went for breakfast and its really really nice!! After that we sit in the car and ‘makan angin’. We finally stop at a cave. Er.. I don’t remember what I called. Sorry. But we enjoyed there, took a lot of photo there. After that, we rushes back to Cadenza Music House.

The end~~

Who is she? a simple day..

2009-06-04T09:05:00.000-07:00

I miss her. Day is just so simple and fun but I still need her. Who is she? I don’t really know. Today my band and I went to Dewan Sri Pinang’s Rose Room to use their timpani. The feelings were really nice as I first step in the arctic, air-conditional room. We have been practicing at our sizzling hot canteen for all the time and this is the best feeling we have never have. We practice there from morning 8.30am until 5pm. We took a box of tom yam fried rice (I took 2 boxes of it..hahaha) as our lunch and also a pack of syrup. After that we went for our sectional. After the sectional practice my instructor asked me and Jeryl go help a lady to carry something. And this is the 1st time I carry so many planks and also metal. The penny-pinching lady is so damm exasperating. She treats us life dogs. I hate her so much. She makes me think of a bull-dog, seriously she got that look.

Anyway after all that hard work, we went to the stall near by to eat ice-kacang. The feeling is so immense when I ate it. I will go there again! Today is just so simple but I’m happy. But I miss her! Who? I don’t know. What am I doing? Miss a person that I don’t know. Maybe not don’t know, it does just don’t want to share. Never mind, who cares?

My saxophone!!

Sectional time...

Tom yam fried rice...

My syrup!!

My lunch..(finished)

Can you see me?? Where am I??

Don't look at me lah!!

Me and Jeryl practicing...

Amir prasticing!!

Hate it so much!!! No one will understand.

2009-06-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

Am I who I really am? Why am I doing all this things? Why can’t I enjoy my life? Why all this complicated things must happen on me? Haiz
Anyway I still need to solve all this problems. I need to keep asking myself why these things happen to me, what I can do and how to solve it. Since the beginning of form 4 all this problems started to come. I hate it so much.

Now the only thing I can do is to enjoy, be myself and do what I must and want to do. I want to score all my English paper with tremendous result, this subject is essential for me so that I will have a better future. Learning all the bombastic word to help in my essay, I really wish that I can write an essay that can impress others with a essay full of long or pretentious word.

I’ve promise myself that I will not get involve in love until I finish my SPM. But there is a girl that I like. Too bad studies come first; wish that I can score my SPM with flying colors. I am really craving for good results in my upcoming exam. I had never score straight As in my life, I am really eager to score it. I want to know how it feels like to get straight A1.

I have a whole week of school band practice; it’s very tiring and boring. We have been playing all the songs a lot of time but we still kept repeating. All the song are not easy to be played. I got lot more to learn, I will keep up all my hard work.

This is some photo of my band buddy and his section. A cool section!!!!

Amir!!!!(The trombonist)

Teacher's and founder's day!! And my baby photo too...

2009-05-29T02:22:00.000-07:00

We celebrated teacher’s day at school today so do founder’s day. There is a person that was very ill-mannered, he asked my friend to change to play tenor saxophone because of our senior is not there during assembly. And when the senior is around which means during normal practice he suggest to the senior to put him under alto saxophone. He treat my friend like a… Don’t know how to say, but it’s very bad to push someone around like that. This is going to hurt people’s feeling. I’m not sure what my friend is thinking but I feel that’s wrong. Besides that someone were so irritating today, he talk to me about something that I know more then him and he finally got nothing to say. He ended with ‘It’s basically the same’. What the hell. He’s wrong and don’t know how to say sorry. What kind of people is that?
Answer: Brainless, indecorous, foolhardy and dim-witted.

I chatted with someone that is very friendly. He though me how to do hand-stand and top-rock. He asked me a question. “What you want in music?” I don’t know what to answer. And that question is really makes me think of what I really want.

Why must our school have so many irritating gays? Why can’t they be what they are and stop making others to become like them? Singing like girls, what’s the point of singing so high when u can’t and it really irritates people? Hate gays!!

Last day of my mid-year exam!!! HE spoiled my mood.

2009-05-28T03:35:00.000-07:00

Today is the last day of exam. I supposed to me happy but I’m not. Not because of exam paper but because of HIM. He spoiled my mood. This is something that is specially made up for him because he spoiled my mood.

He is very ugly,
But he don’t have a tummy,
Look like a dummy,
And how I wish he is a humpy dumpy.

He’s full of crazy thinking.
It makes us feel so pressuring,
He thinks he’s the king,
But he doesn’t understand anything.

He is a taboo,
With a bunch of tool,
Walking like a fool,
Kissing a big fat bull.

He’s a stick,
Thinks like a freak,
Smells like shit,
And finally will marry to a geek.

I hate him…
Who am i talking about??
Haha..
Some know some don't know..
Nevermind its all crap...

2nd last day of exam!!

2009-05-26T23:47:00.000-07:00

Today… Boring day… My sejarah paper 2 result is terrible.

My best friend!!! Help him!

He (my closest friend) told me something last night. He says that he hate his life. He’s in a situation that he doesn’t know what he can do. He has a girlfriend but he feels like giving up her because he want to focus on study but he don’t know how to tell her and the most important thing is he dun want to hurt her feeling. That’s his first problem!

“What should I do? What can I do? How to tell her? Will she be sad?” he asked me.
I also don’t know how to answer so I just keep quiet.

Besides that, his family also facing economic problems. His dad owes a lot of people money because got no business. He is very sad because he can’t do any thing to help him. His dad cant drive the car out because road tax and insurance haven pay, cant make phone cal because cant pay the phone bill, cant pay the house owner money and also the bill for electricity. He felt very depressed and he feels like asking his dad to run away from the situation but it’s not easy to do that. I wish I can help but unfortunately I can’t.

“What can I do? I hate my life!” he told me and cried.

He also has some problems in his own life. He knows a lot of people but he doesn’t know what his friends think about him. He likes people to be straight forward. ‘If you don’t like me, tell me’ that’s his principal.

I as a friend of his cant do anything. Does anyone out there know how to help him?? What must he do to help is dad?? What must he do to make sure that his girlfriend won’t be sad?? How can he know whether his friends like him or not??

I can’t help him!!! What kind of people I am? *sad*

This is my sejarah paper 2 result…
Very bad…
This is my 1st time getting such marks…
This result is so not me...
Next exam i will improve...
i'm sure that i can make it...

All WRONG!!!

Only 8 MARKS???

5th day of exam...

2009-05-25T23:46:00.001-07:00

Two more days and exam going to end. I can’t imagine how happy I will be after exam, but after this lesson that I have learn, I will really work hard. I won’t be in this situation again. It’s so stupid when everyone is doing the paper and keeps saying its easy and me, sleeping and don’t understand the paper at all. After the first week of holiday, I will study very very hard so that I will have a turn to say the exam paper is easy..HAHAHA

3rd day of exam..

2009-05-22T02:15:00.000-07:00

Today exam was nothing, spending most of my time talking with my friends. Besides that I heard of lots of story (love story) from my friends. Exam was quite hard but I’m able to finish it. When I reach home I cleared my room and it looks better than before…hahaha

A place for me to make myself look nice...haha

All my specticles!!!

The place where i always lay on to..

My music area!!

2nd day of exam..

2009-05-20T23:21:00.000-07:00

Today is my second day of exam. Today’s sejarah paper was hard for me because I didn’t study sejarah at all. I spend most of my time studying my ‘Holes’, ‘Harrison Bergeron’ and ‘Cinderella Girl’. But today’s exam makes me feel so angry because the papers were to hard. I’ve tried my best wish that my result will be ok.

Yesterday was ok to me. Nothing special both English papers was easy only some question that troubles me.

By the way, my friend just camp back from a trip to Australia. He bought me a boomerang. I’m so touch. At 1st I was just joking to him and asked him to buy me something but he really did bought me something.

ARTHUR, THANKS FOR THE BOOMERANG!!!!

Its really from AUSTRALIA!!!

See my hair??haha..Look at the price..can see??

actualy to me this boomerang is priceless because its from one of my good friend!!!

A day before exam..

2009-05-19T03:23:00.000-07:00

Today, another normal day. Wake up early in the morning, take my breakfast and go to school. My English teacher teaches me a fraise ‘Don’t trouble troubles when trouble troubles you’ this fraise really means a lot to me. And that is what I’m doing in school nowadays. Being in school is so much different for me when I start to know this fraise. What I am in school is not what I really am outside. Okay forget about it. My buddy, Jeryl still keep call me superstar. And the taught me a word, orgasm. Its so…Er… Don’t really know how to explain ...Phinn show me some video of her quintet and I felt very happy to see all the video. I don’t know why I feel happy but what I like is to see musician playing with each other like a family and enjoy playing music together. I wish that one day I can also travel around like them and share my way of thinking to d whole Asia. For now I will still study hard. After my SPM I wish I can go in to collage or university to study music. Anyway, I really wish all my friends will be always happy and safe same goes to my family..^^

16th of May....

2009-05-18T01:09:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Seng Fung, Dickson and the pretty trumpeter, Phinn...(for the photos)

PESSBand!!!!!

PESSBand's Saxes!!!

The cute trumpeter from Kuala Lumpur, Phinn Tan and me..

A Unforgettable Night!!!!

2009-05-16T19:48:00.000-07:00

Last night was the most wonderful night I ever have before. Yesterday, we started practicing about 2.30pm, and everything goes really well .I can our conductor, Mr. Ng were really worry about all the lighting and all the stage arrangement. But everything still goes well and we finish rehearsal by 5.40pm. After the rehearsal, there were a interview for the soloist I’m so nervous because it’s my 1st interview. Anyway I still manage to answer the entire question. Because of that interview I started to talk with a few people like Phinn and Joehoong. They were really friendly.

8pm….
I was sitting on d chair and being very nervous. The dry ice keeps spraying behind me and I started to shiver. And when YB finishes his speech, I try to calm down myself.

When the curtain opens….
I saw all the glowing sticks holding on the audience’s hand. It’s exactly like having a big concert. The feeling were really great and it makes me forgot about me fear and nervous. The first song, Final Countdown it started up with the piano solo. And when Evelyn started to play the whole crowd were cheering, and the best part is when the whole band play, all audience were so quiet. Listening to all the melody that has been played out by the band. When the song ends, the whole crowd shouted here and there. Ad this goes to all the song until, The Flight Of The Bumble Bee. When Eugene Pook were sitting at the v.i.p sit and playing all the scale with his circular breathing, no ones in the hall knows where Eugene is except the band, MC, and the crew. Everyone was looking here and there but still don’t know where the sound comes from. Until the spot light spotted him, the whole crowd screamed. It was really an interesting show that I think no one see before. As we play and play and play, times really passes very fast. And finally it’s my show time. That song is played by me and Kim Foong and also the Latin dancers. I’m really happy because I didn’t play any mistake or out of timing, and I also really my altissimo, triple high F sharp. We ended the concert by the song name, Go West. When we finishes it, all the audience keep shouting encore. And finally me played them A song name Mama Mia-It’s ABBA.

When the concert ends…
This is the 1st time people ask for my signature and keep taking photo with me. I’m really happy. The people from Ipoh were really supportive and friendly. I can’t wait to meet them on 6th of June. I was interviewed by… I don’t really know what TV she’s from, never mind. The night really was a fantastic night that I will never ever forget about it.

Farewell party….
WE went to Northern Café for a farewell party. I drank half cup of tiger, its so bitter and I don’t like it. But I enjoy being there listening to them singing, cheering and drinking. I really wish this night will come again…^^

A nomal day, but a happy night!!

2009-05-15T08:51:00.000-07:00

Today was just a normal day for me. Eat, sleep, eat, watch television and sleep again. The day was just so meaningless until I went for the PESS Band concert’s rehearsal. When I went there I saw all the people decorating the stage and some of the player were playing somewhere near the back entrance. They were all very cool, they play their instrument well. Besides that, one of the trumpeter look same like my friend. We started rehearsal late and we did do quite a lot of thing in music. I also chatted with some of the saxophonist from Ipoh, They are very friendly. Tomorrow is my show day, wish everything goes well. ^.^ (all the best Keezle!!!)

Another intresting day..

2009-05-13T23:43:00.000-07:00

This morning was a nice morning for me. But when the time where my friend’s mum want to fetch me, my dad asked me whether I have taken my key and I answered him I have forgotten about it. He asked me where I left my key yesterday so I told him I left it on the dining table. He can’t find the key and he raises his voice and scolded me. He asked me where I left and I told him, but why must he still scold me. Is it my fault?

In school..
There were lots of lower 6 girls today. They look great and they got the “study face”.

In class..
Me and my buddy were spending lots of time chatting and making jokes in the perdagangan class. The teacher nearly wrote my buddy’s name in the yellow book (discipline book). We were singing here and there and disturbing all the humans around us.

Tomorrow is the day for my concert rehearsal, I’m so nervous. But no matter what happen, I will do my best.. All the best for me!! Woohoo^^

Busy and tiring month...

2009-05-13T01:45:00.000-07:00

I have a very big decision to make. It will lead me to a better future. There will be a concert coming soon on 16th of May 2009. It’s a beginning of me in the music circle. I’ve spend all my time practicing and practicing and it did help me a lot. And after this concert, there will be another one at Ipoh combining with a secondary school band. And d day after concert I got to rush back for Choralfest. Exam is coming soon. I’m so worry about it. But I still can’t convince myself to study. Anyway I still will try my best in all the up coming concert and exam. Wish I can get good result.^^

1st post..

2009-05-02T21:02:00.000-07:00

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