Bad days...

Life in school isn’t easy at all. For the pass few days I’m suffering in school. I and my form have been united because of that too, except for 4 peoples. Some of them are very childish; some of them don’t bother what is happening and also very rude. Whenever we have meeting I’m sure they will make lots of noise and whatever things come out from their mouth is usually meaningless and words that are very sarcastic. One of them is very rude and I don’t like his attitude. He likes to talk about other peoples parents and also insult other’s parents. What kind of human is this? Do he have parent? Why is he so impolite and don’t know how to respect other people’s parents? I think he don’t know how people feels when he speak in that way. His attitude is going to put him into tans of trouble, and I hope he can change before the troubles trouble him.
Back to the point, how can we, form 4 solve this problem? It’s not easy for us because it’s so complicated and not everyone is telling the truth. I always have my way to find whether people lie to me or not, so please don’t try to lie to me. There is a person who makes a big lie and my form 4 badge believes him so do the others. I wish he tell the truth before something get worse.
It have been 4 days include yesterday I didn’t sms her. I’ve tried to go to the place she stay and try my luck whether I get to see her or not, but when I went there, her house were dark and I think there is no one there at all. Most probably she when for tuition or maybe out for something? So, I called my friend that stay near by and chatted with him for quite a long time.
I still remember that I cried on the 29 of June 2009. I think I cried because of the pressure I have in school and also missing her to much until I cry. This is the 1st time a feel that bad in this year and after I cry I fall asleep. The worst thing is I didn’t reply her message. When I wake up about 1 something, I saw 4 messages and I feel very bad because I did not reply her. A sudden feeling that I get when I was looking the message was she’s sad. I wish she’s not but no matter what happen, I still going to tell her this:
I’m very sorry!!!

I feel that I’m very ludicrous for falling in love a girl that doesn’t love me at all. Why I fall in love with her when already she told before that better not to fall in love with her? Today, 4 July 2009, I finally get to contact her but I feel like I’m disturbing her or maybe I’m very annoying. Of cause if I would ask her whether I am disturbing her or not, sure the answer is no but her message make me feel that I am. My feeling now is very indescribable. I don’t know what I should do. My brain is burning. Her friend kept asking her whether she is with me. How would they know that I know her? She’s still a person that I can’t stop thinking of. There is no reason at all. I can only blame myself that I am ludicrous. Can someone tell me what I should do? I can’t forget her so it won’t be a nice way for me to forget about her.

I still didn’t get the line back yet, and that really make me very moody and emotional, but thanks to me my band buddy, Amir I’m well controlled this few days. And we have made a promise that we won’t use all those F word anymore because it’s very rude and it makes us look childish.

Jit Sin Symphonic Band wishes you all, all the best!!

My god-sis, Patsy is now at Kuala Lumpur studying. I don’t get to see her at all before she leaves, and that makes me feel very depressed.

Sis, wish you all the best and take care! I will always miss you!!^^

Marcus’s sister, Tricia thanks for the dinner that night. Although I don’t know you well but it’s really nice to meet you. Wish u all the best and take care!

My sister is going to Ipoh soon. I wish she will be able to get use to the environment there and also study well and GOOD LUCK!!

Joanne Yap is going to Singapore for further studies and I also don’t get to meet her at all. She’s pretty and young lady wish when she goes there won’t get bully. Hehe. Wish u all the best too!!

Why is everyone leaving me??